She is Receive You as God !!!

Before when i was still in Indonesia prepare for my arrival to Singapore. I feel that i don't want to go there and very frustrating in my mind. I just asked God but He said to me just Go! Before this i have experience like this feeling before and it will be a great things happened. So i decide to Go.

After i arrive in Singapore , i asked my friend to accompany me to go to Hospital but she just pretend  she was coming to the Raffles MRT but guess what she was not there. Okey then my other friend also don't want to accompany me because she was scared because the woman that we'll meet is going to die. 

Finally my sister want to come and accompany me/ She said i don't know why i want to accompany you even i like shopping and i what to enjoy Singapore for this 2 days left.

When we arrived at Outrampark MRT it's a heavy rain and we don't bring any umbrella. But the passenger service and the girl that we asked said that better we go by the alley so that we an avoid the rain. 

FInally after long walk and asking a lot of people , we can reach the hospital and the room. When i came down eehhm i feel that oke better go home la i don't want to come and meet her. 

But don't know just my body want to meet her but y feeling want to go back. hahahahahah Luckly my sister accompany me at that time. 

When i came in , so many bold people there. I know all of them have been taking cancer treatment. And suddenly she was there with the horrible eyes and smile. Ohh noooo :D

Just smile and i say to God : God, if she reject me i will go back and i say i have done my part. 

But guess what , The husband and my  exx boss smile and said. Who are you ? Ohh Yes, I am Yanti ex Deloitte last time when we were in UOL project you're my Project Manager. 

And suddenly i just remind her happy moments ex. Karaoke. Even i have a bad moments with her and i am still hate her. The way she respond looks very tired and weak . Suddenly i said to God" Please God forgive me for my bad feeling to her and please God heal her. 

After talking and smiling 15 minutes now i am planning to go back. But i say to God " SO this is it ? Only this ? I think one main thing i must DO. But i am so afraid God! Surrounded  by a strange people and they are not Christian at all. And i look at her bracelet so scary huh !

But i just smile and at least i try laa …

SIr is it possible if i can pray for your wife ?

Ohh Yes Can . Any religion christian, etc yes can.

( You know last time when my colleague came there they really reject them to pray. So now it;s a really miracle!!!!)

Ok. then i speak to my ex boss. Mrs, Do you feel empty inside you and even you have so many things : family, money, job, etc but    you still empty and lonely in your heart ?

B: Yes *shake her head 

Me: The only answer is only Jesus. And would you received Jesus Christ as your savior and your God? And she said Yes!

 Then after i pray, you can follow my words .

In the middle of her confession, there is one statement that she didn't mention. Uppss what happen ? Is she refuse to pray ? WHen i open my eyes …she just said "excuse me" ?

Ohh. Oke i replay the words. Then after amen .

Just say goodbye then She said thank you. And i said it's oke. Believe that all things are possible. 

You know when we pray the husband and brother looks mad to us. But it's Ok la. We left and at least she is saved and you know her face is looks different than before. 

Thanks God!!!

All my worried and tired feeling just gone with the wind blows cause one thing for sure i know that she was saved. And from now on whatever happened it's under His authority for her life. 

Friends remember when you fell that God is not hearing your voice , or situation is not feeling good. But when you step just one step and walk by faith try and see the salvation from the Lord and His promise will never leave you. You will see the miracle. Miracle start by the way you thinking and next doing what God have told you to do. 

I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Ps 27:13 

God's Calling

This morning i just finished my praying. I am feeling released and free . God really touch me with His present. And He gives me strength to face anything with Him off course :D...

Now i am jobless just resigned from consultant company. I am going back to Indonesia by this Friday and want to start learn my hobby in Photography. Actually i am not really sure about this but slowly God  put me in this situation that i need to go back to Indonesia for a while to learn and enjoy my hobbies instead of doing as usual wake up work and work heheheh. And even so many Indonesian photographers  there but i believe God will put me and open the way to fulfill my hobby and maybe can be my calling. And just googled the testimony :
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If you know my story, you know that I felt compelled by God to leave my career at age 34, a career I loved and in which I was prospering, in order to enter the Gospel ministry.  I remember very well the time just before I was going to submit my irrevocable resignation from my position as an officer in the Army.  A friend who was not a Christian asked me, “How can you be sure?  You are throwing away so much!  Do you really know for sure?”  I really thought about what to say to him.  Finally, I replied, “No, I do not know for sure.  But I know this – I am willing to be wrong for the sake of Jesus Christ.  I am willing to have been proved mistaken because I was willing to trust in Him, and in gratitude for His love I am willing lose even my career lest I should fail to do what I think He would have me to do.”
It took me a long time to get to that point, but when I was there I knew what to do.  I did not and do not know the future, and the book of my life is yet to be disclosed.  Maybe it will turn out to have been the wrong choice after all.  But I am still willing to take risks with my life if I am trusting in Him. 
That is the real issue.  And therefore, the most important words for this matter of calling are those of Jesus from Luke 9:24, “For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.”
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Now i am starting with walk in Faith even i can't see in physically but i can see in spirit . And It will come true. I believe He is my Provider during my jobless without salary.
Let us believe God and walk in by Faith to fulfill His calling to us. Not just doing the routinity.  Off course thorough the situation you are in silent and rest God will show up His way and His will. So friend be sure and expect God's calling in your life.

Break Fast or Buka Puasa

Actually I 'm not fasting. This month is fasting month for Moslem religion. I stayed in Moslem family in Singapore. It's very interesting to stay here . The room is so spacious and they are Indonesian.

Before, i stayed in Indonesian couple also and we shared our life and also with the other tenants.  Sometimes they shared their food from Indonesia or food that they cooked by themselves ha ha ha. 

But so sad now i can't get it. I am waiting and hope some foods will come to my room or maybe they invite me to share their foods like Kolak, Cendol ,etc but so sad they really don't do that. I only can smell the food but no Kolak and Cendol heheheh... This week i am going back to Indonesia . I must eat all of themmm ye ye ye here i come :D